And the final decision is..

So, a while back, I posted that we had made the decision to home school Cierra... Wellllll.. Shortly after that post, I got scared... Terrified really... My insecurities were winning out! Who was I to teach my child?? I had nothing more than my high school diploma... And it had been 8 years since I got that!! What if I missed something? What if I royally messed up my precious childrens future?? So I expressed these fears to my husband, and being the wonderfully supportive man he is, said that he would support whatever I decided. So, we decided: back to Watford City Elementary it was... Back into the class of 20 with a teacher who, while I am sure she would care about my daughter, she never could or would know and LOVE Cierra like I do. Surely, though, she was more "qualified" than I to teach my child.. More qualified to shape her fragile mind.. I justified my decision to myself, and I was starting to convince myself that I had made the right decision.. And on a Sunday evening, my phone rang. A member of The Church had Konnor's blessing certificate, and wanted to bring it by. We got to visiting with him, and found out that he and his wife had homeschooled their children for 7 years.. And they had FIVE children!! (one of my fears was there was no way I could do it with
my 3 children.) I still wasn't convinced. They invited us to dinner.. Not to discuss homeschool but to be able to get to know each other. The night of dinner, I noticed how well-behaved their children were. The older ones were helpful, they were all very polite. I mentioned how impressed I was. Her secret? Homeschool. Huh. We visited about a lot of things that night, but our conversation about the why's of homeschooling rang so true to me. I wouldn't admit it to myself, but I left that night a "convert". However, there were still so many unknowns, so many fears and insecurities. My husband and I talked
more, I met with a group of ladies who all homeschooled, and the final decision was made! We are going to homeschool our children. In fact, this morning, I mailed my letter of intent. I am still scared, I am still full of insecurities, but I know I am making the right choice for my family. I want to share my reasons for this decision! 1. I like to be with my kids. I felt sad and a little bit guilty every day of kindergarten. I hated making her go! 2. I want to be my Childrens greatest influence. 3. I want my children. To be able to move at their pace. Not the pace of 20+ other children. 4.I don't want my children ideas and opinions of themselves formed by 20 children who don't know or love them. (thank you, Audra) 5.I like the flexibility home sschool offers. These are a few of the reasons. I want to be in charge of what my children know, and when. Well, thank you for letting me share.And
thank you, Heavenly Father for making it clear that this is the road my family is supposed to be on!